Wednesday, September 9, 2009
I am pretty sure I just got a red light camera ticket on El Toro which means lots of money in fines, traffic school, and possibly a raise in insurance. I have said a prayer to God about what is going on and I asked for help.
For the half an hour, or maybe forty five minutes after, I proceeded to throw a terrible personal pitty party complete with tears. For months now I have spent time doing a lot of self-loathing wondering when I could catch a break, and maybe if I sucked it up things would turn around.
Now if anyone has any suggestions on how to not focus on the things going wrong and center my attention on the things that are going RIGHT I would be much obliged to listen. This statement, of course, is completely contradictory to what I have been saying to friends and family lately when they try to offer calming words.
I want to extend an apology to all who have listened to me speak sad, pathetic words about my current situation and life direction. I can't promise it is going to make a total 180 in a day, or even a week, but hopefully soon I can focus on the good and leave the bad behind.